They tear at me Ripping and shredding Bloodlines appear The ragged nail pattern Blood lines come to me To tear at the remnants of my fastbeating heart I am not perfection Nor conceited in my thinking That I ever have been I've made mistakes Said wrong things In stupid places Tried to help But was mainly just a conveyance Love can't be forced But hate can leave all hope lost Emotional turmoil Tears  fall Tears fall It does not matter how loudly I call They cannot hear me Have no reasons to find the truth Of  this mans life Hanging by a slender efficient knife Opened veins drain me out Silently sleeping Silently sleeping The fear is mine alone If I blink I might be gone I search and search but there is no trace Of what I've thought on things before I once was happy Singing always I once had laughter Tears now blind me I once felt that it was possible Now that feeling has surely gone Perceptions gained of lifes experience May allow d